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Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
11:33 pm	The irony of it all Drinking a whole bottle of sake while at the same day starting to read a book titled "Dry" about entering rehab for akyhol (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 31st, 2005
7:49 pm	I am hungry. I think I will go get a burritto at Las Palmas. Delicious! Cheap! Wonderful! And then maybe I'll work on my essay due Thursday. This is the last week of school. Yay! Better call Bryce and tell her I won't be able to make her graduation. D'oh! Oh well, I'll make it up to her (Comment on this)
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
11:50 am	Goofus & Galant So today all my academic failures hit me right in the face. Because I have taken too much Spanish I will not be able to attend the University of Cordoba in Spain. If I wish to study in Europe and keep the same time table I would have had for Spain I'll be in Siena, Italy. I'm limited to what programs I can attend since I have a low gpa. My crappy grades didn't really even matter or mean that much to me until today. They never even seemed real, just numbers. But my suckiness in computer science and math have come back to haunt me. So I talked to my advisor and she suggested Siena. As I rode home on the bus, dejected, an older passanger was having a conversation with the bus driver who he seemed to be friendly with. The subject of Yiddish came up and another passenger asked him if there was a Yiddish word he knew of that meant something along the lines of joy so great that you can't even handle it. Apparently she had just finished her chem thesis after working hard on it for a year and would now be graduating, just had her 23rd birthday and she had a great job lined up. This girl was the exact opposite of me at the moment, my antithesis. I was reminded of Goofus and Galant from that children's magazine, Highlights. Goofus being the dumbass who does everything wrong and Galant be the bright boy who does everything right. I feel very down. All I can do is hope that perhaps a level of serendipity in all of this. That is all that keeps me from just calling in sick and laying in bed. Perhaps I'll be better of going to Italy and learning a new language. After all, might it be better to know three languages than two? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, July 16th, 2004
7:53 pm	Long overdue update part 1 Ok, so since it's been a few months, I'm gonna try to get some stuff down since a lot has happened. About a month ago, Chris called me to ask if I wanted to go sailing. Apparently he had towed his parents' sailboat, a little Coronado 15, back home. I was totally stoked so of course I said yes. We went out and got it launched. One funny part about launching was I bumped into this other guy's boat. No damage occurred to either boat but you would have thought I sunk his boat by the way he went off. Oh well, I think the boat launch is just full of jerky fisherman from what I saw. So at any rate, we get the boat set up almost entirely. We try raising the mainsail and it goes up, but won't stay up because this sort of bead thing that's on the main halyard is suppoed to catch but wouldn't. So he pulled and pulled until the halyard snapped. So much for sailing that day. He called me up the following weekend to ask me if I wanted to sail again. Apparently he had made a new halyard himself. Again, we got it set up but this time it worked like a charm. So we got the boat out into open water and we'd spend time between jetting along and just sitting there when the wind died down. It was good stuff. We were getting out further and further away from shore though and we kept trying to tack to port so that we could turn around. Unfortunately, between the wind not cooperating and it having been years since I've sailed, it just wasn't happening. I gave it one last hard tack and the boat capsized, sending us tumbling into the water out by the one mile bouy. So we quickly tried to right it, getting the dagger board out and hanging on to it and climbing onto it, trying to leverage the boat back up. It wasn't righting so I swam out to the tip of the mast and tried pushing up while Chris pulled down. That wasn't working so I floated there a sec while we figured out what to do. Then I realized the boat was drifting away so I swam for it. As I neared the tip of the mast started poking at me from the motion of the waves. It nearly struck me but missed. I crawled along the sail and got back to where Chris was. Our cooler full of beer was floating away now, there would be no attempt to rescue it though. By this time a motorboat had already come by offering assistance, but we sent it away figuring we'd be able to right it. But I was starting to tire out now, having used most of my energy. I was becoming dead weight more than anything. Another, much larger, sailboat came by to lend a hand. I gladly accepted, especially as they pointed out how the boat was sinking (only its bow was sticking up at this point). Chris was nearer so they picked him up first. They had to make a few passes to pick me up, throwing a rope with a floaty attached at me. It would get close but not close enough. I finally caught hold of it and they reeled me in. As I was being dragged in I made the joke that it must look like they were trolling for great whites (I don't think they heard me though). So they pulled me in, looking like a drowned rat. They suggested we go down below and lay down to warm up. We got down below and I got my shirt off with some help from Chris since it was sticking to me. My shorts had a long tear down my left leg from being pulled aboard but luckily I was wearing boxers. I drank from a bottle of water to wash the salty taste out of my mouth and laid down. The moral of that experience was to wear a life jacket always. I believe there's a good chance I wouldn't be alive today had I not worn it, as I would have been too pooped out to tread water. So at any rate, they dropped us off with the harbor police who took a report and told our story to Vessel Assist, a company that rescues watercraft. Unfortunately it appeared that the boat had sunk as it was not at the last position it had been seen. So we ate at the Seabright Brewery a bit bummed we sunk a boat. However, the next morning I got a call from Vessel Assist saying they had found the boat! They had been trying to reach Chris but couldn't, so I tracked him down. He was at work so he couldn't pick it up so his girlfriend and I went to get it. The tab came to a bit over $1000 but luckily his Chris' mom paid for it. When the boat was loaded onto the trailer, it was drained first. That process took about 15 mintues since it was so water logged. When we got it back to his house, I was very relieved. The experience would leave me with scratches and muscles that ached for days after. So next time I go sailing, I'm gonna go on a bigger boat for sure. In my next update, I'll write about my trip with Sarah to upstate New York to....MEET HER PARENTS! (Comment on this)
Monday, March 29th, 2004
11:01 am	Oh boy, first day of school. I'm not registered cuz I still haven't paid tuition, which means I've been dropped from all classes. Oops! Oh well, hopefully everything will work out, as it often does. I failed macroeconomics as I suspected, so I'll be taking it again this quarter. Sarah got a new car since the old one broke down. It seems pretty comfy and nice. Work has been going ok. Not too much else. Just been having fun hanging with Sarah. Saw Eternal Sunshine, that was a pretty sweet movie. The movie may have inspired Sarah to take me out to West Cliff afterwards to get it on. We were (maybe) spotted however so we quickly pulled up our pants and headed home. It was very muddy since it had rained that day. Lately I've been ripping my CD's and putting them on my mp3 player. Most excellent! Ok, gotta get ready for school. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 22nd, 2004
8:42 pm	Braaaaains!! So Dawn of the Dead was cool. It was the same and different from the original. It served its purpose too, for as I was watching it, I hardly thought of Sarah. I went to the Rush immediately after. I got some drinks and Brian noticed I was down so I told him why. He bought me a drink, so at least I have that going for me. As I was in there, I listened to a message from Sarah. It sounded like she was hurting and I didn't want her feeling that way over lil ole me so I made sure to call her. I did pop by the Red first before calling her though, needless to say, today I needed a good numbing. Well, if everything goes right tonight, I'll eat some left over pizza and get drunk as much as I love Sarah (which is a crapload). I'm well onj my way though. I'd also like to go for a walk along West Cliff. It's perty and if I'm feeling dramatic, it has jagged rocks below (though not to worry, yours truly enjoys life [for the most part]). (Comment on this)
4:59 pm	So times of late haven't been too much fun. Vince is gone --moved to Oakland to be closer Color me sad So times of late haven't been too much fun. Vince is gone --moved to Oakland to be closer to his documentary -- Ben has moved off, I'm sucking at school, and now there's my girlfriend making out with another dude. This is by far the worst thing to happen. I've lost a lot of confindence in her and myself as well. But god damn I love her so much it hurts. I'm so upset I wish I could just be unconscious forever, or at least until I feel better. It kind of reminds me of the first time I had sex, and I kept thinking "Wow, I can't believe I had sex" all day and the thought kept on randomly popping into my head. Now throughout the day I keep thinking "Why?" just all day long, and with it I imagine him and her making out on my couch, her fondling his oh so wonderfully pierced cock and it makes me sick and I can't help but think of it, even though I don't want to (and the run on sentence award goes to....me!). She said she wouldn't do it anymore, I just hope I can trust her. I've been told I should leave, she even told me, saying she would hurt me again. But she's also promised not to do it anymore. I'm so confused. The way she was telling me how she would hurt me, I was reminded of the lyrics of the Tool song "Sober". Speaking of which, that's a god damn good idea. I'm gonna get drunk after I finish this. I want to stay with her though...maybe I lack self respect, or maybe I do really believe she can change, but one thing is for sure and that's I love her so fucking much. I was reading some Cat and Girl comics and it brought up the good point that to err is human, to forgive divine. In the background of the comic there's a Pink Flamingo poster and Waters is from Baltimore, and so is Sarah. Ok, ok, perhaps I'm reading too much into that (I'm not really one for signs). But I know if I ever was checking out a clit ring of some friend of Sarah's on her couch which led to making out and groping while Sarah was trying to walk her drunk friend home, I know I would want to be forgiven. Ok, have to go now if I wanna get some alkyhol in me before I leave. I'm gonna go watch Dawn of the Dead. Perhaps that will take my mind off of all this business. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
12:00 pm	Welllll, crap! So I failed the econ final last night more than likely. I guess I'll be taking that class next quarter. Here's to hoping I do better. But I'm happy cuz I found matching socks so now it's off to work. I'd just better do well on my finals tomorrow. I hope I pass them. Grrrrr, you'd think I'd learn procrastination is bad by now. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 13th, 2004
2:06 am	Stuff and things So I'm intoxicatred as I update, as is the norm. I think it's cuz it's when I feel most creative, or willing to share, or most patient with myself. It's prolly one of those, if not all. Haven't been to the bars in a while. I was gonna hang out with Sarah but then I realized that Vince was in town tonight and I told him I would hang out with him. So I ended up chilling at the bars with Vince, mostly the Rush. It was good stuff. Met a cool fellow by the name of Kyle who taught English in Japan for a coupla years. I've been worried lately as I have finals next week. Not fun at all!! I'm not even sure if I'll pass a coupla classes, whereas the other I know I'll pass wioth flying colors as it is super interesting (history of space age and planets human craft have visited). Sucks to be a procrastinator. I hope I can change myself soon. It'd be most helfpful. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004
10:15 pm	Birthday Hurray for me, it's my 22nd b-day. Just hit up some bars now I'm waiting for Sarah. Coldstone is yummy. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
10:27 pm	Stuff and stuff Not too much going on. Worked today, and got myself especially spiffy-fied. I'm was out of food so I bought bread, cheese, and milk. That should hold me over for a while. The bathroom is being a bitch in that the toilet and shower are not draining properly. The toilet just overflowed, which was not fun. Color me angry. Grrrrrr! Umm, got a paper due in my astro class. Ok, I admit it, I'm boring! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
10:22 am	dubba dubba and rowr! Apparently I go "rowr" a lot when I exert any sort of effort physically. Sarah pointed this out to me. Though I don't do it during sex, that would just be weird. "Rowr! rowr! rowr! yeah baby!" Work has been ok. School has been....not so good. I'm sucking ass cuz I'm a lazy mofo. Time to tighten my boot strap or jock strap or whatever those straps are one should tighten when they need to work harder. So I'm gonna try to get a haircut. Sarah has a new one and it is nothing short of fantaaaaaaboulous. And it's all high-litey and stuff. What if you got dark streaks put in, would that be dark-liting? So yeah, short term goals are hardcut and getting this mess of a room cleaned up. Then Sarah shall take me shopping for clothes so that I too may look fantaaaaaboulous. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 8th, 2004
5:23 pm	Update, part 2 The the night after I hung out with Chris, I was to hang out with my friendster, Sarah. We met at the Red. I got there first, and went inside, looking for her, then I noticed a tall girl outside and it turned out to be her. B'zam, she was hot! So we got a drink and then went to the Rush. It should be noted that all the drunks we had were girlie shot drinks as she was try to edumacate me on the subject. After the the Rush I took her to the secret spot Chris had taken me just the night before. Onward we went on our quest to get intoxicated. We ended up at the Avenue where I ran into my old rommate, Kenny. Said hi then we proceeded to drink some more. I was really into her but didn't know how she felt until she suggested we take body shots. I had never done them before and she explained that I was to lick salt off of her neck "or other part of her body" (which she seemed to emphasize), take a shot, then she would pass me a lime from her mouth into mine. Needless to say, I took the salt off her boob, she has a d cup for crying out loud. It was very hot, and led to some kissing if I'm not mistaken. She then came home with me and gave me some amazing head. I don't think she spent the night tho, not wanting to get a ticket on her car. So we dated a bit more, 1.5 weeks later we had sex (faaaaboolous). I've met her friends and partied with them and they're all cool characters. We are together most of the time these days as I miss her often and she feels the same way. Ok, now to move away from generalities and back to events of fun! Wamu had a Christmas party which was ok-ish. Sarah had a birthday party which was fun, got really wasted (prolly too wasted for any good). Met some of her friends and co-workers of her friends. Went home for Christmas and brought Sarah with me, or maybe the other way around since she drove. She met my family and they liked her. That was an awesome x-mas to be sure. Went drinking at the bars with Max, and after we dropped him off, we had sex in her car at Peacock Park. It was an interesting way to do it, and most certainly tonnes of fun. Then when we got home, she gave me head in my mom's house, and I had to do my best to be quiet. I got all sorts of good loot. My dad got me an mp3 player that I'm enjoying, and at 30 gigs, it has more than enough room to hold all of my music. A couple weeeks agao I hung out with Sarah's friends again. We went to a house and the brother of one of the kids had this gasmask that you would screw into a bong, filling your face with smoke. Well, I had to try it and it was awesome. Then I watched Scarface which has to be one of the most violent movies ever. Then just last week we were in bed and Sarah told me that she loved me. When she said it I knew I felt the sameway and told her so. Everytime I think about it or tell her, it makes me feel sooooo good. This is definitely a girl that I'm gonna want to be with for a looooong time, she is a catch and a half. Last night was really crazy tho. We went to the Pink Poodle strip club in San Ho. We had a hell of a time finding the place, but we were not disappointed. The girls there were pretty hot. Sarah bought al the boys in the party private dances. It was interesting but not very arrousing as I like privacy, plus I was kinda nervous as I always am in new situations. In retrospect it was hot, but I would much rather have my Sarah any time over a cock tease from some stripper. Sarah makes me feel really comfortable. I feel like I just want to melt into her. Ok, I'm gonna cut this entry off now because I have a crazy urge to go hug her and she's right upstairs. All this talk about her makes me want to tell her I love her some more. :) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
2:24 pm	A long overdue update. Part 1 Well....where to start? I suppose I should start at the beginning. Somebody had hijacked a truck full of gun parts,but they had screwed up on one part and--wait a sec, that's the Usual Suspects. Ok, my update'll still start a couple months back in October. Main events included hooking up with some girls and having a blast. I've never gotten so much play in my life from multiple girls as I did late last year. It was keen. One was this nice gal, Angela, who I'd fuck and get high/drunk with and her friends. She was cool and her friends were awesomely nerdy. We'd just sit around getting wasted and watching Family Guy, then going to the bars or something. This other girl, Ashley, was this cute indie girl. Vince and I went with her to the Monterey Bay Aquarium and then future encounters included spending the night getting head in her bed or making out. Didn't hook up with her too much, but she was cool. One crazy story I have to put down before I forget is about this threesome I had. So I was working at the bank and this hippie girl comes in with her sister, Jen, who has these cool lip piercings like the doorman at the Red. I help them out and stoked to be helping these cute girls. Later that night I went to the Rush and hung out with my pals there for a bit. Then wanting to change scenes, I went over to the Red. I get a drink and head towards the back to see if anybody I know is there and who should I run into but the sister, talking to one of my barmates. So she sees me and we're talking and she's like "I think you're cute" and stuff to that effect. Then she starts making out with me right there. But I also saw how she was digging my friend (Josh) and I didn't want to be a cock blocker so I announced that i would be taking the both of them home with me. I figured he wouldn't care since I knew him to be bi curious anyway (not that I touched him or anything). So I took each of them by the arm and we walked back to myplace. Then we got naked, Josh went down on her and I was prolly playing with her breasts or making out with her. Then we took turns screwing her. We were using up practically all of my condoms. Then she'd have us shoot on her chest. At one point I left them alone a bit then later Josh gave me the same courtesy. When we were done having our fun, I called them a cab and off they went. I saw the two of them at random points in time later, but we never hooked up again. Since I don't believe in paragraphs, here's my next tale. So I went with Angela and her friends to the Blue Lagoon, which is this gay bar, to dance. I was ordering myself a jack and coke when this dude next to me asks how tall I am. So we get to talking and he's a cool enough fellow so I end up talking with him. Then I go tell Angela that I'm gonna go bar hopping with him and off we go. First stop is the Red and we get a drink there, then head over to the Rush and repeat the process. Then he says he wants to take me somewhere so we go up these steps next to the Rush and end up at this secluded place. We hang out up there and he holds me close which was kind of weird, then he tried to kiss me at which point I made sure he was clear I was straight. He was cool with it and we decided to walk back aong the river. I'm secure enough of a man to say that I let him hold my hand. We got back to my place and said our goodbyes. I've seen him since (we went dancing a few weeks ago). SO that's the story of one of the gayest nights of my life, which immediately made way for one of the best, in which I met the girl I now love, but that will be a tale for a different post as I'm about to leave with her to a bbq. (Comment on this)
Monday, November 3rd, 2003
1:59 am	fuck fuck fuck FUCK ME IN THE GOAT ASS! Ok, so started day going to Monterey. Hung out with this totally cool indie chick for most of the day. We went to the Aquarium, drank, had a good ole time but she couldn't join us at the bars. At the bars: hung out with these cool older folks especially this gal Ann who is a math/econ major. They left and went to Saturn and I followed. There was this feeling that I could hook up with her so that's why (I mean she asked me how I would feel hooking up with a 27 year old for chrissake!). I ate with them and everything was going well with Ann. I even made out with her slightly. So I go to take a piss and I can't find her. I look all over the place and she's totally gone. To make matters worse it's raining, and raining hard. So eventually I give up totally bummed out, with a crappy feeling in my stomach. I walk home totally drenched and cold with now girl. As I write this I am totally cock teased and I feel like shit. Please shoot me. Hmmm, at the very least, there was that cool girl I hung out with. But FUCK! This was an annoying evening.....FUCk FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 2nd, 2003
3:56 am	I think they threw a roll at me Let's see, what's new and old and usual. Drinking; no toking thanks to my shitty lungs. Music, work at the bank is ok. Over Bredette, and she must feel the same, haven't seen her in like 5 weeks. New interenet girl, tis cool but she smokes too. When will people not smoke cigs??? I hate that shit, fuckin nasty (and smelly). But A LOT of cool girls smoke so I'll have to deal. Halloween was cool, I was a ninja cowboy. Went downtown with some friends and a bottle of tequila. So lotsa good costumes while getting drunk. Tonight I got druk and then I just got back from the Saturn (deliciousness to the max!) and had a good time there. I got nachitos but with fries instead of chips. Mos def the new way to go. On the way out I knocked over a high chair and since I was the only cutomer in the place i had fun and spazzed out and ran out of the place. I think they threw a roll at me. My receipt says "pocket the rest"cuz they're silly there. I fuckin missed Del and Hiero and Souls! The worst hip hop tragedy of them all. I need to start paying attention to who is coming into town. At the very least so that I can maybe sell some tickets, but mos def so that I can see some amazing shows. I've missed so many good shows. Oh well, at least i've saved some monies. Tomorrow I'm prolly going to the Monterey Bay Aquarium. Good shit! (Comment on this)
Monday, September 29th, 2003
10:59 pm	Stuff and stuff So on Saturday I attended this bbq hosted by my boss and most of my co-workers showed up too. There were plenty of yummy snackables and good conversations. Unfortunately I was drinking too much too quickly. I don't really even remember leaving the bbq. Luckily Vince was with me so he got me out of there before I could make a scene. The rest of the night I remember in bits and pieces. After the bbq we went to go hang out with my co-worker Shawna who didn't go. So I kinda remember going with her, a friend of hers, and some German dude to the Red Room, though I don't actually even remember being in the bar. Then I threw up then I guess Vince told me to walk home so I did. I got Chinese food and watched Footloose (I didn't know Kevin Bacon could dance) and Back to the Future III. Then I threw up again. I remember it being a warm Chinese food barf. Then I went to sleep. The moral of the story is to pace yourself when drinking, otherwise you end up doing stupid things and make your evening less fun then it could have been. Also, I'm not too good at these things, but I feel like Bredette is getting burnt out with hanging with me. I dunno, I hope not. But I haven't hung out with her in a few days. I bought her a gift today, a pocket dictionary. I know it sounds stupid but she was commenting on how she wanted one. So I'm gonna see if she wants to go out to dinner some time this week. I hope so, I haven't seen her since Friday or so. (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 21st, 2003
8:53 pm	Last night and stuff So I hung out with Bredette at this bar and had an awesome time. They had some punk bands and I had a lot of energy in me so I felt like dancing and I did. I moshed my heart out and had a blast. I had on sandals but luckily my feet survived. One guy did try to stomp my feet but he missed, which is hard to do considering I wear size 14 shoes but it was for the best he missed. I have been soooo sore today. My arms need to be pumped up. My fave band there was called Arno Corps. All the members were dressed in theme of various Arnold movies and all the songs were based on them like Predator, Terminator, Commando, etc. they have a werb site (www.arnocorps.com) that is just as amusing and has some of their songs. So I had a blast. Today I tanned out at the beach and that's about it. I'm working on laundry right now so I'd better get back to that (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 20th, 2003
3:16 pm	Hot shit So I finally had sex with Bredette. That was fun stuff. Last night we hung out and went to one of my fave bars during happy hour. I drank a shitload and while i was enjoying that, I was fingereing B since she didn't have any underwear on. That was pretty frun n crazy. This jewelery sales lady came in and almost saw us and asked her if she was horny. I turned really red when I thought she saw us but she was just refering to the devil horns B was wearing. When i realized that, I was very relieved. So then I got super drunk and B had promised a friend she would hang out with him so I went home and she hung out with him. As I walked home I looked up at the marquis and realized that I missed the Violent Femmes and I was bummed that I missed it. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 17th, 2003
10:34 pm	What's new and exciting So I've been working and hanging out with Bredette a lot. I've spent the night a buncha times at her place now but it was only on about the third time over where I mustered up the courage to kiss her. I remember it well. We were laying next to each other late at night and my mouth was sooo close to her. I wanted to kiss her very much but I was too afraid and I was torn in two. But then I remembered what Amber amber_nickel said about going for the gold and I was like "By golly I will!" and I kissed her and we made out and have done so several times since and I am happy. This one time I was over we watched this freaking awesome French cartroon called "Fantastic Planet". I don't feel like going into detail right now but just take my word for it, that it's totally crazy cool. The DVD also had some equally crazy cool shorts. So more about Bredette: She's a pretty darn cool girl. She's quirky and funny and I think she appreciates my occassional wierdness. She has a stoner's memory but that's nothing to worry about. She's very pretty and I very much enjoy being in her presence. As for work, work has been tiring. I've been learning how to be a teller and I think I'm coming along fairly well. Tuition for school is paid. I made some burrittos that were super tasty but now I'm all gassy from the beans. Mmmm burritto. Maybe I'll go drink some wine now? Isa said I could drink hers since she doesn't like wine and her boyfriend got her a bunch. I'm also happy cuz my insurance paid for a bunch of my hospital stay waaaaay back in January. Yay! (Comment on this)